Nostalgia

I miss blogging, so, so much.

 

我不配

认识了你，我的生活变了。
每一天都好像过得比较快乐， 很轻松，很幸福。
可是， 我那么幸福，有人却很难过。
我知道她有多痛苦，但我却我却无能为力。

我拥有的，本来属于她。

怎么办。

Blank

很烦

Masked

How well do each and everyone of the people out there truely understand themselves?

Are personalities fixed?

How much do we differ actually?

Headache…

Why are the masks always there. Times when i thought that i’ve removed them all, but not.

Even when i’m all alone, the act carries on…

Who am i trying to be? What am i trying to show?

Who am i trying to please..

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Boxed

Feel so trapped.

1 x 1

You’ve been really sweet. Sometimes all the resentment and complaints seem to disappear. Am i thinking too much again?….. guilt.

Who exactly am i.
Why do i see so many of me..
Which of it is real…
Or am i all of them….
Is that me.

Obnubilate

I hate theories. Entre test’s  sucks.  Accounting was easy. Intbus and Law next week. More theories, did i mention that i hate theories? oh.. i did.

Anyhow, Daniel will be away for 3 days, off to camp. 3 days! My little bro’s staying away from home for 3 whole days! Sigh, i’m gonna miss him ):

It’s a chore to stay awake.
But i don’t wanna sleep.
Time passes too quickly.
Clouded.
What do i want..

Here, There, Where? Everywhere.

Shopping with lin today after the short LAspBus project meeting. Yawns. Although i felt really drained, after all the thinking, confusion, blah, whatever, the shopping trip really helped. Bought a few christmas gifts (:

Chat, Bitched, Complained, Whine with her made me feel all better. It really does help when someone else understands. Not that i’m happy she knows the feeling too, but it just makes you feel better. Much better.

When it comes to shit situations like that, I am totally not capable of making any decision. How the hell do i choose when there is like, a thousand and one solutions in my mind. You told me the solution, and i’ll stick to it.
“Have a little more faith and trust, just don’t assume for the worst”

Thank you again girl.

Daddy God,
I do not want pretty dresses nor bags for Christmas,  Just little moments for my mind to rest, let it go blank, just like lin’s (: She told me, it’s pin drop silence inside her mind. I want that, I wanna close my eyes and rest too. For the sake of my sanity and for the people around me. Thats what i want for Christmas.